Explant Part 3 

I’ve been so touched by all of your messages and the stories you’ve shared with me through this whole process. It’s reminded me that every journey is different, and we each have to make the decision that feels right in our own heart.

For me, this hasn’t been something I took lightly. I’ve spent a lot of time praying and really pondering what the right choice was. I’ve had long, heartfelt conversations with Kevin and with loved ones who have gone through this procedure themselves. I’ve listened, I’ve cried, and I’ve asked God to help me see clearly what was best for me.

In the end, I decided not to fully explant but instead to go with a smaller implant. The biggest factor was my health. If I was still as sick as I once was before starting my healing journey with @drjoshredd, I know without a doubt I would have removed them completely. But I feel the best I’ve felt in years — and that’s what ultimately guided me.

Another big part of my decision was being honest with myself about the outcome. Without implants, I would actually be in the negatives — not even able to fill a bra. I was always a DD in high school, and I’ve struggled deeply with body image before. I don’t ever want to go back to that dark place again.

So, this was my choice — one that came through prayer, counsel, and a lot of soul-searching. I know everyone’s path looks different, but I feel peace in mine. And I’m so grateful to all of you for holding space for me, respecting different outcomes, and showing me so much love along the way.